I was more than ready to throw in the towel on my writing career for a multitude of reasons, but the vehicle that drove my desire to quit was the “middle school slumber party syndrome.” You see, whenever my daughter attended slumber parties during her middle school years, she always arrived home the following day with a severe case of crankiness and an uncanny ability to see the negative in everything. Hence, my name for this emotional state of mind.
I’ve learned, however, that the middle school slumber party syndrome isn’t unique to young teen girls with sleep deprivation. It can be seen in either sex at any age when a person is in any way deprived of adequate sleep. Perhaps you’ve observed this, too?
So after spending five nights sleeping poorly on a sofa while staying with a close friend in crisis, I experienced an acute case of MSSPS. During the four-hour drive back to my home, every negative reason why I should quit writing entered my brain—and made complete sense to me.
Fortunately at one point, I remembered that it always works out best for me when I consult God before making any big decisions, so after asking Him for godly discernment, I focused on listening for His response.
Twenty minutes later, my cell phone rang. It was our long-time family friend Don Wentz calling to tell me how much he’d enjoyed reading God’s Provision in Tough Times. Don explained that he’d read one story each morning as a sort of devotional, and that the stories provided him with encouragement and inspiration for his day. Don then asked when my next book is due to come out.
“Really?” my startled brain responded. “Don, let me ask you a question—and please give me an honest answer. Do you think my writing’s any good? Because I’m seriously thinking about quitting writing.”
“Don’t quit. I mean it,” Don replied. “You’ve been given a gift to write about everyday circumstances from an encouraging perspective. And God’s Provision? I needed each of those stories. I think you’re under spiritual attack. Whatever you do, don’t quit writing.”
Could this be God’s response to my prayer? I had to know. “Don, what made you call me just now?”
“Well, I felt a sudden powerful urge to pick up the phone and tell you how much your writing means to me. I believe it was the Lord putting it on my heart.”
I knew immediately that Don’s call was the Lord’s response to me seeking His will.
The evil one will use any means to derail us from doing God’s will. He knows that our resistance is low when we’re tired, frustrated, hungry, lonely, or feeling down. But rather than following through with decisions made under duress, we need to remember that we can never go wrong seeking God and His plan for our lives.
Satan took full advantage of my exhaustion and almost had me fooled, but when I remembered to seek the Lord, God sent a faithful servant to guide me back onto the right path.
The Lord will work out His plans for my life—for Your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever. Don’t abandon me, for You made me. Psalm 138:8 (NIV)
TO GOD BE THE GLORY